I so deeply appreciate this piece Filiz. Thank you. I am profoundly moved by your eloquently naming the unnameable and addressing the unspeakable, shining a light on something so complex that we feel insignificant in the face of it. But we aren't. We are part of everything that is happening. My heart is breaking every day. And it will keep on breaking as I offer my prayers, awareness, love and action into the life of this world. May peace be upon every person everywhere.
...the levels of violence sweeping the human dimension now is a far worse evil than that perpetuated by Lucifer and Ahriman: the human collective is in a battle with its own deep, disturbed shadow...the mystic watches it all, and prays...
Such wisdom within this sharing, of so much we are seeing. Thank you for this insight into what we all hold and perhaps a little help in seeing how we can release in a more healthy way. 🙏
Debra and Filiz, your artistic expression around violence feels like a sacred commitment — an honoring of life as it moves in the direction it is already flowing.
Learning how to Tai Chi the energy of aggression — not by resisting, but by meeting it, redirecting it, transforming it. Surrounding yourself with chi that not only protects but also reflects and releases the impact of assault.
This is powerful, necessary work. Thank you beloved Sister.
Ohhh, thank God, my dear sister. Reading this was both transforming and touching deeply.
And the question at the end seems to have settled in my body.
As a woman who experienced the same violence and whose inner beast has awakened, I think my responsibility is not to give the strings into that beast’s hands. Yes, there is a violent part inside me. Inside me, there is light and darkness. This is inevitable.
And I ask myself: What am I doing with that dark part of me?
On the path to being human, I choose to notice that darkness and separate from it. And I say to it:
“Hello dear, I see you. But I will not give the strings to you. I am walking on the path to be human, and this requires it. We are companions. I cannot suppress you, I cannot ignore you, of course. Come, let’s walk together.
But I will use your amazing strong energy in life: I will write poems with you, for example. I will find the power to clean the whole house with you. I will wink to other darknesses with you and bring healing.But I will not give you a weapon, my beautiful darkness. Because I have a daughter. If I want to leave her a peaceful world… I may not be able to change the countries, crazy leaders, injustices, and the mentality that puts many beautiful souls in prison for no reason. But I can give my daughter the gift of being raised by a mother who has made peace with her own darkness and violence.
As a girl who was beaten by her mother, being a mother who never beats her daughter will create a serious breaker wave effect.”
This monologue felt good to me. Though this “beast” has been talking to me in different violent ways for 12 days, shaking my body and attacking secretly from inside. Before, I always answered it with the help of friends holding space for me and with very gentle massage. But now talking to it directly also felt good.
I so deeply appreciate this piece Filiz. Thank you. I am profoundly moved by your eloquently naming the unnameable and addressing the unspeakable, shining a light on something so complex that we feel insignificant in the face of it. But we aren't. We are part of everything that is happening. My heart is breaking every day. And it will keep on breaking as I offer my prayers, awareness, love and action into the life of this world. May peace be upon every person everywhere.
Thank you for sharing this...
...the levels of violence sweeping the human dimension now is a far worse evil than that perpetuated by Lucifer and Ahriman: the human collective is in a battle with its own deep, disturbed shadow...the mystic watches it all, and prays...
Such wisdom within this sharing, of so much we are seeing. Thank you for this insight into what we all hold and perhaps a little help in seeing how we can release in a more healthy way. 🙏
Debra and Filiz, your artistic expression around violence feels like a sacred commitment — an honoring of life as it moves in the direction it is already flowing.
Learning how to Tai Chi the energy of aggression — not by resisting, but by meeting it, redirecting it, transforming it. Surrounding yourself with chi that not only protects but also reflects and releases the impact of assault.
This is powerful, necessary work. Thank you beloved Sister.
Thank you Linda for your reflection, it helps me make sense (which is an ongoing process) and keep learning from it.
Ohhh, thank God, my dear sister. Reading this was both transforming and touching deeply.
And the question at the end seems to have settled in my body.
As a woman who experienced the same violence and whose inner beast has awakened, I think my responsibility is not to give the strings into that beast’s hands. Yes, there is a violent part inside me. Inside me, there is light and darkness. This is inevitable.
And I ask myself: What am I doing with that dark part of me?
On the path to being human, I choose to notice that darkness and separate from it. And I say to it:
“Hello dear, I see you. But I will not give the strings to you. I am walking on the path to be human, and this requires it. We are companions. I cannot suppress you, I cannot ignore you, of course. Come, let’s walk together.
But I will use your amazing strong energy in life: I will write poems with you, for example. I will find the power to clean the whole house with you. I will wink to other darknesses with you and bring healing.But I will not give you a weapon, my beautiful darkness. Because I have a daughter. If I want to leave her a peaceful world… I may not be able to change the countries, crazy leaders, injustices, and the mentality that puts many beautiful souls in prison for no reason. But I can give my daughter the gift of being raised by a mother who has made peace with her own darkness and violence.
As a girl who was beaten by her mother, being a mother who never beats her daughter will create a serious breaker wave effect.”
This monologue felt good to me. Though this “beast” has been talking to me in different violent ways for 12 days, shaking my body and attacking secretly from inside. Before, I always answered it with the help of friends holding space for me and with very gentle massage. But now talking to it directly also felt good.